fake.

"same here. were faking all the time that i'm okay.."


that was from dio, when i replied her text asking "are you okay staying at home..?"

the fact that the mid semester break has come to its end, and we'll be back to campus for the second term of the semester, i'm wondering am i the only one who feels this all the way; being so fake in front of other people, showing them as though i am so fine, but deep inside i am.. wayy NOT?

i do not know for how long i could stand being in this way, but i couldn't lie to myself either-- my other half is missing! i need to get my spirit, my drive back, for me to get back on track and end this second semester wth flying colors.

it's been a month plus since the fairytale becomes a history, the sweetdream becomes a worst nightmare, a goodnight kiss becomes a cold silent, and since the laughter becomes tears..

my prayer to YOU.. YOU; whom it may concerned..

"may ALLAH guides you all the way, protect your imaan and taqwa wherever you go,whatever you do, bless your everyday life, and brings you closer to HIM each and everyday.."

imy, the old you.

a treat to myself :)

currently at my sister's office in kepong. will be waiting for her until 1 o'clock and off we go to shoooopppp! well, basically it is said to be a shop to be kurus..*kelip-kelip mata* X)

like dio said, "mimi, lets go for jog, kita main sports sampai jadi kurus, pakai cantik-cantik and voila!" you can read in between the lines though, don't you?
--it's some kind of a feeling of frust selepas ditinggalkan that you feel you have to get up and show to those j**** that you can still live your sweet life without them!

ok let's just skip this part -.- moving on to the to-do list :-

• sweat pants- a pair or two.
• sneakers- been searching for reebok since ever, sampai sekarang tak jumpa yg berkenan -.-
• having a hair cut!woot woot! okay mom will be so annoyed to hear me mentioning abt this over and over again, and she'll end up says.."dari dulu lagi dah dengar nak potong rambut..-.-"
• makan! like a king- simply because it has been almost 2 weeks since i've treated my stomach badly and carelessly. sorry little tummy -.-

p/s: i can't really promise to get the last thing on my to-do list done with splendid.urggh

im awake ..still.

done watching barbie and the three musketeers. okay after few moments of viewing this, you guys gonna think that ohmyyy she's the lameeeee-est girl i've ever seen -__________-"


...followed by cloudy with the chance of meatballs. --- movie marathon i should say, while there's a lot of works and notes queue-ing up to be done! splendid meh! *sigh* -.-"


p/s: thanks dear roomates for cheering up this lame, boring girl, even if it doesn't last for quite long. after all, merci beaucoup gorgeoussss!

-- how i ever wish you could turn back the time and review every single words that had spoken by you.. how i wish T.T

if only..i die young :)

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life well
I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into Your Kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand
there's a boy here in town says that he'll love me forever
Whoever thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life oh well,
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
what I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts,
Oh no,
I'll sell em' for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
and maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)

The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls..




-- A song which meant to describe how this girl is looking at her life at this moment. yeahh, that's just true when the people arnd you will started to remember YOU, i.e your good deeds, your wise advice, your sacrifices, your helping hands without seeking any reward in return, and everything in between which might be seemed so 'insignificant' in your very naked eyes before, JUST AFTER YOU'VE WALK AWAY AND BE A GONER, or in the simplest word used oftenly by my lecturer .. "pindah batu dua.." lol okay this is funny :D
obviously, by the time those people come to realize, it'll be just too little too late for them to regret over..

I miss you, yes i am..

overnight at Kristal.

just before the tales become contaminated, let's just spill the whole of it out. yeah, will be packing some of my stuffs, and i'll be off to kristal condo; biela's place tonight. i miss her alot! okay fine, memang oftenly jumpa cik nabila ni at the fac pun, but we won't be having that ample time to sit and have a chat. more will be posted soon! and eh lupa..i'll be hving my first group presentation on tort subject for this second semester..tomorrow morniiingggg! wish this little kiddo best of luck :)

meet the girl, Nabila anak encik Hasni :)

Izinkan ku menyintaimu dari jauh T.T

my very first entry for this semester. let the song tells you guys the story. cheers.




regards; amirahm.