if i ever leave this world..ALIVE.

well, the title was meant to be one of the soundtrack in P.S. I Love You; my ever-wanted-to-watch movie eversince the first semester in Kuantan. unfortunately, it happens that yesterday was my lucky day to watch it for the very first time. poor kid *sigh*

Yesterday was my happy-sad day where everything went on so random and in prompt to :-

; picked up by dearest girlfriends, hanis and jiha at homy,arnd 1645. in prompt to karaoke at alamanda for an hour.

-ohh my God i just can't recall when was the last time i met you guys,its been ages!

; failed to look up for our car on our way back home which we had parked somewhere and we just can't remember.

; evening tea at old town white coffee, Bangi before heading back.(7pm-10.30pm)

- we catched up each other's long-contaminated-old story and we laughed. and when it came to mine, i teared and they were there to hug, calm and keep me accompanied. and yes, it was the longest conversation i had with them in a coffee hse.

; at home. it' s already 1 something in am and i was still awake,doing nothing -__-

-- suddenly my thoughts drifted to catch the movie P.S I Love You, and so i went out of the bed and grabbed the thumbdrive. p.s- thanks biela for sharing the movie:)

the first 30 minutes-- CRIED T.T

30 minutes later-- CRIED AND CRIED T_T

the last 45 minutes, and it went onn-- CRIED AND CRIED AND KEEP TEARINGG T____________T

-- Oh this young lady had a baaad panda eye when she woke up this morning.. well. it wasn't really because of the story plot, as a whole. it was because that movie itself reminds me of these two days which i had teribbly encountered, and i'm still..encountering it..and i just don't know when i can end it with a fullstop.

she feels that she resembles Holly now..living without any strings to hold on to.

don't you get it?

Her name is "FAITH" and she is not a tree stump!get that point? okay to whom it may concerned, here are her weaknessess so you'd know :-

• it seems so hard for her to 'berterus-terang' directly and explicitly in front of you, telling you what's your mistake, why are you doing this and that, whenever the unsatisfaction occur. she doesn't know why, but she always find it's terribly hard to 'eye-to-eye' with you, be it verbally via message or when both of you meet up..
• people have certain degrees of patience, and yes so does she.. she can be really patient at times, but don't ever take her for granted!so the problem now is that, she thinks her level of patience is so way,way high at the top of the sky than anyone can ever reach -___- i don't know whether she should be proud of it or called herself a fool that anyone can easily step over her head while she just nod, smile and say.."it's okay:).."
• she hates that she loves you so much.. well you should know the myth/fact that love is blind though, that you're willingly to do,to sacrifice everything; your money, your time, especially your heart and feelings. and she guess, that's the biggest weakness that she can hardly erase T.T

please, she can't bear to watch herself being hurt again and again..so please..:"(

need you now..

the wishlist..

• i wish i could make earlier preparations for every upcoming tests and exams.

• i wish i could absorb knowledge fast, even faster than a sponge can absorbs water.
• i wish i could be more hardworking to locate for extra information and resources, without relying too much on the spoon-feeding notes given by lecturers.
• i wish i could be more less-procrastinate in finishing up the assignments and so..or should i say.. NO procrastination at all?
• i wish i could turn back the time so that i won't be repeating those mistakes on and on and on.
• i wish i could be less day-dreaming; foresee my so-called fairy tales with mr. prince charming bla bla bla..need to put it a fullstop and be more realistic!

• i wish i can stick to my resolutions-to-be-made on 2011,tightly+strongly+faithfully!oh please Lord help me :(

• latest update by iffah - to not give up easily!(:
  

guess that's all which i could think of at the moment.

yes, people do set certain targets in their life, in whatever they do..just to achieve what they desire, what they have been dreaming of, for days and nights. but think about it again, a target without any solution,or should i say a hardwork can ever produce you a good fruit? idts. of course,both must work and run simultaneously then you'll get the best outcomes.so peops, if your wishes and dreams don't seem to hit the target accurately after this, then you already know what to do. there must be something wrong somewhere, and you've to figure out why. this is a good reminder to all of you, including me. NO, especially me, tehehehe :)

all the best to all of you, pre-law students PI005 batch 09/10, may ALLAH's blessings are always with you guys, and congratulate yourself because you've come to this far..and yeah, miles,miles away yet to achieve..farewell friends. should i say TTYL..or TTYS? xoxo;

as we grow old.. (:

what on earth (:

check out how these colourful and unique micro cells can be when the're placed under a light microscope-- maybe.LOL. taken from a random website though. SUBHANALLAH (: unfortunately i managed to go through this article once, and i can no longer reach the website due to my carelessness in jotting down the URL. pfft-.- so yea, i kinda fail to name these creatures properly as am not really sure of it.have a look yea!

a wasp eye

soy sauce

bubbles

err..some creature found in the sea.

cancerous cell-- if am NOT mistaken.

cool huh? (:

this cocoon is going to pop out!

...and become a beautiful butterfly! :) yes indeed. am getting bored with the current skin. so yeah, the blog will undergo some maintenance.* wink wink* new skin, and of course new ENTRIES! i mean loads of entries to be updated after a long,long period of hibernation. LOL (: wish to convey some fresh ideas, stories and everything in between-- right after me done with this maintenance thingy. so yeah, toodles for now peops! ;)

kenapa??

boleh tak bagi satu jawapan yang absolute,kenapa benda-bande alah kat tepi belah kanan aku punya blog ni KOSONG je??:"((

third semester.

SO LONGGG and HELLO bloggers!;)

yes indeed! this girl now has a problem of conveying her ideas and imaginations into words, somehow. so yeah, that is why her blog turns to be so 'tak bersemangat' this lately! i have to agree with that though.


PLUS, with the problem of WIFI here in the campus, she finds that she could only log in to FB like few minutes, rather than couple of hours she used to spend in front of her lappy before -_-".

apa lagi kalau nak i log in to blogspot pulak kan?


and APART FROM THAT, with bunch of assignments to be submitted, not to forget the one that have to be done OVER AND OVER AGAIN!arghh.. i could feel the hectic of it starting from now.

"let's foresee how this hectic life would be in the next 5 years time...IF AND ONLY IF i can ever get myself successfully into the BLS programme.."

someone seems to stalk on meh!:D

• FIRST AND FOREMOST..

thanks to HASYA NADHIRAH a.k.a QASEH MAWADDAH for tagging me to actually answer this so-called 'soalan terjah' !and SORRY if the answers given are in multi-languages,i loike though! okay let me start with the first answer :-

1) Siapakah diri saudari di rumah?

- AMIRAH SYAHIRAH MOKHTAR adalah zuriat perempuan terakhir yg lahir dari hasil p'kongsiap hidup EN. MOKHTAR MD. ALI & PN.RAHIMAH MAT TAMIN yg kini telah m'cecah 30 tahun.
- ADIK kpd 3 org kekanda yg cantik jelita, tdk m'punyai kekanda yg kacak hensem , dan kekanda kpd seorg adik lelaki.
- seorang yg boleh dikatakan ringan tulang, membantu ibu t'sayang tanpa byk menyoal.
-seorg anak yg suka makan nasi dan lauk masakan ibu sampai 2-3 kali menambah! p/s:hanya masakan ibu yg boleh buat saya menambah nasi:D


2) Siapakah saudari di samping kawan-kawan?

- am a good times and hard times buddy!;)
-pendengar masalah,pendengar umpatan dan gosip yg setia, LOL.
-bahu saya ni laa yg org cari-cari whenever they feel like tearing.
-maybe di mata mereka, saya ni senang dibawa b'borak pape aja, in a short word; i'm an open-minded person for them to spill out every version of stories, ranged from U to 18SG,SX,PL pun ada,HAHA (:


3) 5 perkara yang saudari idamkan belum tercapai?

-i pray to receive a MUET result which stated a band 4 on it. my heart tells me that i should do something according to my capability.so i don't intend to put a higher target than the fourth band, amin..

-to end my pre-law with a pointer of 3.5 and above..:)) and pleasee Lord! give me a place to study in SHAH ALAM campus for my degree programme,instead of MERBOK..! due to some random rumours i've heard:"(

-to have a good career as a lawyer, legal advisor, or anything related to this legal field that offers me with a good, good salary! *blink blink* and of course, i intend to put myself as one of the gov. servant..nant bersara ada duit pencen!cheyh longg investment tau! :8D

-i pray to perform good deeds towards beloved mom and dad, to repay them back eventhough i know that it's indeed "unrepayable". for atleast, berbakti utk yg tersayang selagi hayat dikandung badan..

-how about to settle down? hehe suka aja!of course siapa je yg taknak impian yg last ni m'jadi kenyataan? bak kata hasya, "ingin menjadi isteri kpd seorang zauj yg dicintai".. dikurniakan babies yg comel macam ibu dia!:")

3) Siapakah nama pasangan saudari?

okay ni namanya soalan perangkap! haha lagi mau tanya kan hasya? akal waras diri ini b'kata, "jodoh itu ketentuan ALLAH yg sudh t'tulis di LUH MAHFUZ.." tp saya sbg hamba yg lemah ini TIDAK AKAN putus-putus b'doa supaya kebahagiaan dan kegembiraan b'sama si dia yg telah dikecapi kini akan berpanjangan hingga ke akhir hayat.maksudnya smp waktu saya nak settle down, sy m'harapkan dialah bakal zauj yg dinanti-nanti, dgn iain-NYA:)

so, buat masa ini, si dia tlh diberi nama NUR MOHD.SHUKRI B. MOHAMAD:)

4) Ceritakan 5 perkara yang anda suka tentang pasangan saudari?

bukan nak riak,sekadar pujian ikhlas dr saya:)

- hidungnya yg agak-agak nak mancung itu tlh memancing hati akak:D

- he's an obedient 'abang long' towards his umi and abah and his little brothers and sister:")

- he works hard to achieve his dream.

- he cares and concern about all things related to me.

- and he accept and loves me for who i am wthout any doubts, and he's my very loyalover..

6) Bilakah tarikh saudari couple?

as stated above; on MAY 27th 2008:)

7)Apakah pengalaman pahit saudari bersama beliau?

-nothing bitter than the month of JANUARY 2010..it tells you e'thing though.but it's better for not to recall them back. whatever it is, past is past, and i've learnt to be a patient person from the day onwards.. and to forgive but yet no to forget.

8) Lagu tema cinta saudari?

i don't know which one supposed to be..he loves to sing to me "kerna ku sayang kamu" by dygta and also "my guardian angel". but i prefer "cintamu" by dygta too,feat ira..yes ia sdg b'kumandang ketika anda singgah di blog ini(:

9)Apa perubahan yang dilihat pada pasangan?

well, as we both growing up, there must be changes going through the phase,yes? homosapiens do change a lot!huhu, so yeahh..there is some laa, but as long as the changes made is for the better life without bothers the relationship, then it'll be fine with me. but to tell the truth, the most obvious is that he's getting "muscular-er" and more!takut! :/

10) 10 rakan yang anda mahu interview?

shazlida shafee!

cik azyyati wahidah mesti :D

cik fatimah ili :)

miss zaghinn zahari love

p/s : 4 for me is enoughh, all of them are virgin girls and having hot,hot boyfiees..:)so let's terjah them!ngee:DD

auww..that touches me!

1.THANK AND LINK THE PERSON WHO GAVE YOU THE AWARD.

a big,big applause to miss nabilah lutfi for the award given, you've been so thoughful all ths
while, *big hugg*


2.PASS THIS AWARD ONTO 10 BLOGGERS YOU'VE RECENTLY DISCOVERED AND
THINK ARE FANTASTIC.

~ cik weyda
~ miss aqeela
~ zarin kacak
~ hafiz jelita
~ encik zul
~ shazlida shafee :)
~ fatin fatihah

p/s : sorry cz i just manage to list 7 of em'..will be update more soon :)

3.CONTACT SAID BLOGS AND LET THEM KNOW THEY'VE WON THE AWARD.

yess,will do:))

4.STATE 7 THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF.

* she's straight, yes exactly!

* a little girl wth 5blood siblings.

* active in sports ; hockey during her schl days, tht makes her skin goes tanned!

* she sings and dance..err well?

* she's very determined, but yet 'fussy' in achieving her goal..of course in a good way laa;p

* her classmates in campus call her 'ibu' ; maybe because of the attitude for being too mothery:)

* she loves her loverboy so much!

everyday is a boring day.

how's that sounds to you?it's indeed. sometimes i felt being in the campus is wayy pleasant. WHY? cz i feel i have more things to do there.ahh..it was just an assumption though, forget it -_-
but telling you the truth, i begin to miss KUANTAN aload!

i can't even recall when was the last time i went for scrabbling on the blog. i was just scared if my acc might have just been blocked due to the long period of not signing in to it, cz i guess my friend had experienced that before.thank GOD, it didn't happened to me.

lost of ideas i should say, i mean goood ideas to be jotted down here. but yeahh, guess i have to begin; starting the engine of this brilliant brain to get to work, or else it will soon reach the expired date! NOO! i won't let this thing happen. i have to get my brain works brilliantly. enough of half-day of sleep mimzy, ohh god you've been sleeping too much!

other than that, enjoying your perfect evening raining season peops, yeahh i'm now enjoying it to the max! and andd HAPPY HOLIDAY ASASI-IANS!:D

being a critical thinker is really really critical!

drop by to just saying..err.. HELLO AND MORNING EVERYBODYY!:)

currently in library (haha for once in a bluemoon you pple got the chance to actually observe me in here) ..thought of doing some research on the internet for BEL 313 ; tonnes of assignments are queuing up to be done wth the use of CRITICAL THINKING!! this is crazy man!oh ALLAH,please gives this little kid a bit of patience and strength, and guides her well, so that she won't feel down and easily give up. this is indeed her FUTURE my dear LORD..

i'm going up stairs to my hostel now.till then..salam..



regards;
mimzymims

the sunday begins..

SELAMAT PAGII KUANTAN!!:)

supposedly need to wake up as early as 8 to do the hsework,cheh!bt end up "terjaga" at almost 9.30.sorry dearest housemates for not lending a help to clean the house,ohh i felt soo bad!:( no hard feelings yea pple, sayang korg sampai mati laa sisters!okay back to the business,my laptop has been fixed!yeahhh!:D but still..the lazyness to go for blogging is still there.*sigh* oh saya sgt tgh ketandusan idea skarang ,seriously i don’t know wht else to crap abt in here.eventhough there’s like tonnes of things happened in between my absence from ths blogging world;ranged from the sweet,sour,salty..semua ada!but too hard to recall all of em' back laa.it's okay then mimzy,just get started wth ths new entry of yours ogayy..

i'm not going back home next week, as my family has plan to spend their THAIPUSAM holidays in KUANTAN,plus the "HARI WILAYAH" according to mommy which falls on monday,so yea..extra holidays for them maybe.it's been a pleasure for me, of course simply because first, i don't have to buy ticket and let my ass hurt for sitting in the bus along the journey from kuantan to K.L, and second because i got to spend my weekends wth my family here,in my study plce, weee:))

but still..one thing that distracts me a bit,okay it's not really a distraction,but i'm seriously now torn in between..;SHUKRI wove is going for the hockey tournament held in Lembah Pantai for the Sukan UM i guess,and great!because the tournament will be held on the same day as thaipusam,pffft!i've been waiting for such events actually; watching him dribbling the ball in front of me,attacking the opponents and stuff.in fact,it's my fav sports though,of course i'll be like so anxious especially when somebody who's yours is playing for the game,argghh!guess ths going to be the first and the last of his participation in UM for tht game,as ths sem itself is going to be his last semester.i won't be having the second chance though..:(

but still..NO WAY for me to hurt my parents feeling as well.yeah they're my only priority for now..yes indeed!plus they have booked the hotel and stuffs,so i'm not going to screw up the plan,no!lover,wish to watch the game though..maybe takda rezeki kot. but please promise me to capture something on tht day okay?eventhough i might not be there,atleast there's somethng for me to witness and satisfy myself,hehe.
wish you all the best baby.try to shoot some balls okay,bak kata qiyah "pecahkan telur"! haha and perhaps 12th college can be the champion! love you forever moreee